Adam Thoughts #284.

September 23, 2018 in , Adam Thoughts by Adam Dunlap

All thoughts are original unless quoted.

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Teaching acting has no interest to me. Showing people how to live, however. Now this has merit.

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The faster reality manifests, the faster you understand.

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No matter where I end up, I don’t think people are going to realize how arduous my journey was. For virtually 2 decades I ventured completely alone. That was not be design. I can’t explain why it was that way. It was as if, no one would join me, and those that did for a short time abandoned me leaving me worse. I had family, yes. I had friends, yes. But that is small consolation to the arduousness of a heavy journey without true companionship. It was like I was trying to prove something. It was like I was trying to become something. And it was like people were interested, but no one really believed in me or was willing to help. People would sell me food at the fort, but no one would hike with me. And looking back, I wonder: did it have to be that way? Could I have taken a path that was easier? A path with others? A path more friendly and common? I would have liked that path, very much. As far as I could tell, it never presented itself. Maybe I could have changed my ways and given more or communicated differently. But at the end of the day, I didn’t do anything wrong. I didn’t drive people away; I wasn’t selfish; I wasn’t cruel. I was open, kind, and hardworking. Perhaps I was ill-equipped. Perhaps I didn’t have the tools, or the experience, or the vision. And yet I did what was in front me. Faithfully, and with conviction, and with belief. I had no other choices that I can see even in retrospect.

I wanted to write that down so I wouldn’t forget.
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Hollywood provides the gossip for the common folk. Politics provides the gossip for the intellectuals.

It’s one in the same.

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Maybe I need to become a man and stop dreaming.

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I didn’t like this movie the first time I saw it. I thought it was boring and slow. Now that I am an actor, I see movies differently. I really liked it. Great music too.

[A medley of songs from The Revenant soundtrack]